I am sure we have all felt like giving up at some point on this journey...and if you are someone who is shaking your head no, mark my words, your day is coming. Not that you will do it (give up), but you will wrestle with the idea, and you will be able to taste the tempting illusion that ALL of your problems will be over once you "walk away". Well, I am here to assure you that your "temporary fix", may provide a bandaid solution, but the reality is, you have to fight and you have to keep going.
I wish I could say that it will get easier, but I cannot. The only promise that I can assure you is that you are never alone. The war that you face is against flesh and blood, and you my sister or brother, are getting in the way, when you ought to take your burdens to the cross. Somehow you started to believe you don't need anyone to do anything for you, because YOU have been doing it all alone for ALL of these years...Well, you are wrong.
The only reason you are feeling the pressure or the weight is because God has stepped to the side to allow you to be the god that you think you are. The only reason you are so stressed out is because God wants you to surrender (let go of) your will for the God-given will, already set before you were born. Yes, God knew you. And God still knows you, even when you dress up your mask each morning with adornments and make-up, the plastic smile, trendsetter style clothing, or that designer purse. I see you. God sees you too. As a matter of fact, God saw you first!
So, in those moments of surrender (self-defeat), surrender (give it to God). You aren't by yourself. Cast all of your cares to God & rest. You will be glad you did!